A sannyasin says: I’m not sure which direction to take – whether to go out more to people or to go
inside myself more. I’m not sure which is best for my growth.
Osho checks his energy.
Good, come back. The energy is really good.
You have to do both. Choosing won’t be good. These are not alternatives – whether one should go
out, meet, mix with people, or should go in. Both are needed together. If you move towards one, you
will become lopsided. So sometimes go out, mix with people, forget yourself. Then really go out.
And make it part of meditation that going out is good. Balance is needed; choice is not needed. All
choice is wrong, because these are are not alternatives; they are complementaries. Together they
make the whole, and together they make you holy and healthy. Together they will heal you.
[Osho went on to say that people who are like monks could not be whole and healthy because they
were living just half lives, were rejecting life and other people…. ]
Even if they are silent, their silence is very poor. It is the silence of beggars. It is empty. It is simply
negative. It is not a fulfillment, it is not a benediction. It is not an overflowing ecstasy. They cannot
dance… they cannot sing.
And unless you can dance your way to god, you can never reach.
So this is what I would like to say to you: dance your way to god. And dance comes by balance. One
cannot dance on one leg; both legs will be needed. And one cannot dance by choosing the inward or the outward, by becoming the introvert or the extrovert. Dance will need continuous coming and going. It is a movement. You have to reach others. And it is helpful; it is not contrary to meditation.
When you go to somebody and you are lost in the world, suddenly a need arises to be alone. It is an
appetite. Then you come home and you sit alone, and now you can enjoy. Now this is not loneliness,
this is aloneness. If you don’t go out and you sit there, it will be loneliness,. not aloneness, and there
will be no appetite. You will be bored by it. It is as if one is full and still sitting at the table and trying
to eat. It will create nausea. You need a few hours in which not to eat – six, seven or eight hours
fasting – then suddenly you are hungry again.
So when you go into the world you become hungry for aloneness. It creates an appetite for
meditation. When you are alone it creates an appetite for relationship. These are like two wings. No
bird can fly with one wing, and no dancer can dance with only one leg.
So balance is my whole message, summum bonum. Always remember, never choose anything
which is going to disrupt your balance. Do whatsoever can be done to bring more balance into your
life. Whatsoever brings balance is good, healthy, and whatsoever makes you lopsided is unhealthy
and dangerous. So sometimes go out and enjoy it. Don t go reluctantly. Don’t go because I am
saying. Go in deep delight because outside god is also waiting for you in so many forms.
Find, search for him there also. And when you are tired of the outside and tired of relationship, tired
of people, come home,.close your eyes, sit alone, meditate, go in. There also, god is waiting for
you as your own self. He is everywhere so there is nothing to choose. One has to be choicelessly
aware. So just try balance.
It will take a little time. It is very easy to choose one because then there is no problem. It is simple
arithmetic. If you choose one, you drop out of the world, you forget all relationship; you close all your
doors and windows and you shut yourself in. Simple – no polarity, no challenge – but by and by you
will shrink and die.
OSHO
