I have heard about one preacher. He was going into the pulpit for the first time so for the whole night he rehearsed what to say. He had chosen a very beautiful passage about Jesus, and this was to be a great crisis in his life – whether he would succeed or fail.
The first success or failure means much, so the whole night, standing in his room, he rehearsed and rehearsed lecturing to the audience. But by the morning he was so tired, so sleepy, that when he stood at the pulpit his mind went blank.
He had chosen a beautiful passage: Behold I come! He said, "Behold I come!" and his mind went blank. He couldn't find anything so he thought, "If I repeat it again, maybe the flow will come."
Again he leaned forward and said, "Behold I come!" but nothing came.
To appear nonchalant, he leaned forward more, as if it was not by accident that he was repeating, and again he said, "Behold I come!"
Under his pressure the pulpit collapsed and he fell into the lap of an old woman. He said, feeling very embarrassed, "Sorry, I never meant it to happen."
The woman said, "No need to say anything. You warned me three times when you said, `Behold I come!' It's not your fault."
There is no need to rehearse, to premeditate; let things happen.
But the way things go in the world questions and answers have to be thought over. Both are dead, and when the dead things meet there is no spark.
I know it is difficult for you but try.
By and by it will happen, and once it happens you will have a freedom from the mind; you will become weightless and have wings into the sky.
OSHO