The mind is not your reality; it is a false interpretation.
You are not the mind, you have never been a mind, you can never be the mind. That is your problem- you have become identified with something which is not.
You are like a beggar who believes that he has a kingdom. He is so worried about the kingdom — how to manage it, how to govern it, how to prevent anarchy. There is no kingdom, but he is worried.
Chuang Tzu once dreamt that he had become a butterfly. In the morning he was very much depressed. His friends asked, "What has happened?.- we have never seen you so depressed." Chuang Tzu said, "I am in a puzzle, I am at a loss, I cannot understand. In the night, while asleep, I dreamt that I had become a butterfly.
"So the friends laughed: "Nobody is ever disturbed by dreams. When you awake, the dream has disappeared, so why are you disturbed?"Chuang Tzu said, "That is not the point. Now I am puzzled: if Chuang Tzu can become a butterfly in the dream, it is possible that now the butterfly has gone to sleep and is dreaming that she is Chuang Tzu."
If Chuang Tzu can become a butterfly in the dream, why not the other? – the butterfly can dream and become Chuang Tzu. So what is real — whether Chuang Tzu dreamt that he has become a butterfly or the butterfly is dreaming that she has become Chuang Tzu?
What is real ?
You can become a butterfly in the dream. And you have become a mind in this bigger dream you call life. When you awaken you don't achieve an awakened state of mind, you achieve a no-state of mind, you achieve no-mind.?
OSHO