God has not been coming to you,
your doors are closed.
You may have closed them against the devil,
but when doors are closed they are closed.
And one who needs, feels the hunger, the thirst to meet the divine,
has to meet the devil also.
You cannot choose one,
you have to meet both.
OSHO
You go to the office, you move through the traffic, everywhere you have to create a certain deadness around you. You think it protects — it does not protect, it only kills. Of course you will suffer less, but less blessings will come to you, less bliss also. When you become dead, suffering is less because you cannot feel it; blissfulness is less because you cannot feel it. A person who is in search of a higher blissfulness has to be ready to suffer.
This may look a paradox to you: that a man of the status of a buddha, a man who is awakened, is blissful — absolutely — and also suffers absolutely. Of course he is blissful inside, the flowers go on showering there, but he suffers for everybody all around. He has to, because if you have sensitivity for blessings to become available to you, suffering will also become available to you. One has to choose.
If you choose not to suffer, you don't want to suffer, then you will not attain to blissfulness either — because they both come by the same door; this is the problem. You can close your door in fear of the enemy, but the friend also comes by the same door. And if you lock it completely and block it completely, so afraid of the enemy, then the friend cannot come either. God has not been coming to you, your doors are closed. You may have closed them against the devil, but when doors are closed they are closed. And one who needs, feels the hunger, the thirst to meet the divine, has to meet the devil also. You cannot choose one, you have to meet both.
If you are alive, death will be a great phenomenon to you. If you live totally you will die totally; if you live two percent you will die two percent. As life, so will be death. If the door is open for God it is open for the devil also.
OSHO